When I got out of the facility, He and I were still on our break, so I couldn’t contact him, so he didn’t know I was out.
I checked the area around where the pin was dropped on the screenshot I found on his phone on Grindr and found a profile whose name was just a single letter: the first letter of his last name. The fetish/kink section listed all of his turn-ons and the stats matched him perfectly. On Grindr, if you try to create a profile with an email that has already been used, it throws an error that says exactly that: An account with this email address is already in use.
I tried to create a profile using his university email address from when he was in graduate school, and that very error was thrown.
I shut down. Was he seizing the opportunity of me being institutionalized to get back on the apps?
We planned to meet on December 15th. I worked so hard on what I wanted to say. I wanted to apologize, I wanted him to know how I knew the exact nature of how I wronged him, I wanted to paint the picture of what our life could be once we were finally back living together, and I wanted him to know how truly we could use the last few months of pain to our benefit to launch a brand new, more beautiful chapter of our story.
He texted on December 14th and said he made it to Indiana (he was staying with a friend) earlier than anticipated so we could meet up then if I wanted to. I was at a family Christmas so I couldn’t, but I felt good about the offer. Why would he want to meet up sooner if he were going to deliver bad news?